Satya (truth) in my practice

I have found myself being more honest with myself during my asana than I have ever been before.  Is it because it’s not just me in the practice, but TC too?  Is it because I don’t physically have the same space to work in?  Or is it because I don’t feel as ego driven? 

It’s strange this feeling of freedom to do what feels good!  To listen to what my needs are.  To just be honest and live in that moment. 

For the first time in class last week, I came out of a pose early and went into Child’s pose.  I felt nothing but gratitude towards myself for realizing that this is what I wanted.  On this cloud of realization, I did it again during my morning practice yesterday.  I was preparing to do Eagle pose and found that I really didn’t want to!  Instead I did Tree, which felt simple and nice and truthful.

I do think I my ego was leading the way somewhat in practice.  And don’t get me wrong, I’m sure my ego will come into play again.  But to know that it feels just as good to not push and struggle into a particular pose is like eating the first sweet juicy homegrown tomato after a winter without them!  To get that instant gratification from listening to my body during my practice, that is a pearl of wisdom that came from me.  That pearl is satya-truth.