Ahh, leftovers…
Sometimes leftovers can be exciting and yummy, something we’re actually looking forward to having. Other times there are things lingering around for days that we’d rather not open because they were stashed in the corner and “forgotten” about and now they probably aren’t very good.
I had both types of leftovers from our last yoga weekend.
Clean out the old stuff first:
1. I think I’m paranoid…have I become one of those women that constantly bring up their pregnancy? Eeeekk (yes, I really did just make that sound because writing it down is even worse!!) I think I asked a lot of pregnancy related questions last weekend and that feels awful. I mean, it’s not all about me, so just stop bringing it back around to yourself CC!
2. What did M mean by (not direct quote,) “you kind of had an easy sequence there”??? {That was feedback in reference to the poses I taught to the group during our teaching session.} That wasn’t my intention, I was just trying to let everyone else take what they felt most comfortable with. But what’s really leftover from this comment is this: Did I just take the easy road? Ugh, that’s terrible.
3. Guilt, guilt, guilt! I have yet to sweep the studio after a weekend together!
Blessed be, onto the yummy leftovers:
1. The tenderness and depth of sharing that came from the group this weekend. The honesty that’s in this group of women is palpable. It’s genuine and true and allows us to come into a place within ourselves that would otherwise be scary and I personally wouldn’t delve into. But there it was, another weekend of it and I do feel honored to be a part of it.
2. T’s kindness and offerings to help me adjust/arrange things even when she was in a funk. I love that about you, thanks for your efforts even when you were down and out!
3. Our discussion about transitioning into yoga teaching as a full-time career. This is stuck in my brain. M’s guidance of realizing what our truths are and how the things we’re doing now line up with those truths has come up repeatedly over the last 2 weeks. It’s not that I’m unhappy with what I do…it’s just that the organization that I work for isn’t even close to my truths and most times when I’ve tried to change this, I get shut down. I realized with the above stated pearl of wisdom, that it’s not that I’m not happy…I do love teaching people about their bodies…it’s just not how I want to be doing it. And figuring that out brings infinite thoughts/ideas/opportunities!
That’s my leftovers good and bad, but it’s good to clean out the fridge for both. Can’t always just take what we want, we have to survive with what was served to us too (even if it is a couple of days old).
Big belly hugs!
~CC
Candace, not to worry! I’ve never felt that you ask too many pregnancy-related questions. And I’m grateful (and I’ll bet the others are, too) for the chance to learn first-hand about what’s important to you as a pregnant yogi, and about what’s safe to suggest.
And besides, you have a lovely generous heart, and I can’t imagine thinking of you as self-centered!
Love, Laura
September 23, 2010 at 04:00
oh you…. i will resist my urge to make this about me and justify my contribution to some of the above… but know that we can talk if you want to =)
i love your leftovers. xo
September 23, 2010 at 15:47
What a neat analogy about the leftovers. I liked that.
I personally don’t feel like you talk a lot about being preggers. I love having you in class for the fact that it brings such an awesome opportunity for us to 1. witness your growth(you personally and your belly) 2.witness the creative adjustments and modifications for someone who is with a child.
I find it so fascinating, and kind of wish it was pointed out more- like “see what Candace needs in this pose is….” I would appreciate that knowledge for not only teaching but for when I too have a baby inside me. Thanks for your beautiful offerings-I enjoy your blog.
October 8, 2010 at 13:14
You are a gift to all of us. Even if you were not pregnant, you would be an amazing asset but with TC a part of our experience…untold gems. i can tell you from experience that this is one of THE most amazing times of your life and if you make it all about you, more power to you. we should all be down on our knees bowing to your power and energy. you are creating life and we have the privilege of sharing it with you. I am not religious, and this is not based on any dogma about the sanctity of life in the womb, but it is about a true miracle that is freakishly fabulous. We are all so lucky to have you part of this experience. As for sweeping…this is said with the utmost love and support…get over yourself! we are one for all and all for one. I am sure we will let you know if there is an “issue” but i am certain we all would feel most useful sweeping for you and TC over and over. Again, please understand this is NOT altruistic as you are giving us such a gift it is without words to describe. It is not that you are incabable, it is that we get the chance to offer love and support to a miracle in the making!!!
xoox
October 11, 2010 at 04:40